I’ve been thinking about starting a YouTube channel, but I’ve put it off out of fear of how I look and sound. I used to hate watching videos of myself so bad I’d feel almost faint. So I just made a 30 second trial video to see if I still hate my face and voice, and I completely fucking don’t. It’s so strange. So I might go forward with making some videos.
One of the weirdest parts of transition is how there are these new hurts and challenges, but some old agonizing pains disappear while you’re not looking.